When I was a pup, just starting out on my own and in music, I owned a 1977 VW bus named Biku. My surfer Buddhist friend Craig, whom everyone called Buddha Craig (duh), named it for me when I brought it up to my parents’ house in Tucson after spending $800 on it and getting another friend to help me find an air cool valve for it in a salvage yard so it would start. The van was beautiful: kind of light brown, with a darker brown and saffron interior. Craig pronounced that it was just like the Tibetan monks’ robes and that this van would be my teacher, or Biku. (Actually I think the real term is Buku but what did we know.) Since I was fully in the throes of my most hippy times, I loved this. I plopped a statue of the Goddess Tara on the dashboard, hung a crystal from the rear view mirror (!), managed to get my guitar and clothes and music and motorcycle (!!!) inside, and set off to drive cross country.

My friend Buddha Craig and me at the beach...

I couldn't find any shots of Biku. This one isn't the right color, but the rest of it looks like my van...
Early one morning I chugged off East into the sunrise, passing through the rocky canyons and flatlands of Eastern Arizona and New Mexico, winding my way around the little highways and at some point down into the far upper left corner of Texas. Since my Biku was only 4 cylinders and about as aero-dynamic as a cinder block, it was critical to stay off the interstates. One semi passing me was like a death fight to keep the van on the road.
Anyway, I rolled into a little town and parked in front of a cafe for breakfast where the morning special read “Jesus loves you.” Jesus sounded delicious but I had waffles. When I went outside to motor on towards Austin, Biku wouldn’t start. Nothin’. Not a turn, nothin’. Seeing my struggles, a handsome cowboy strode over and introduced himself as Wes Briscoe ( I kid you not–this guy had a handlebar mustache and everything)…He towed me to his friend’s shop, who pronounced the starter “challenged” and showed me how to crawl underneath and whack on the contacts with a crescent wrench to get the van to start.
I was thrilled. I loved rolling under Biku in the middle of a mall parking lot and going “Whack! Whack! Whack!” then promptly rolling out, brushing off my knees and hopping up into the bus again to putter on my way. (I told you I was very young.)
Biku and I drove all over our beautiful country. We drove across the South in the middle of summer with no air conditioning. We only had a radio, so we chugged up and down the Tennessee mountains with the fireflies twinkling ahead of us, old-timey music fading in and crackling away again and back in once more around the bend.
In the fall I moved to Austin, Texas. I had visited once before to see some friends I had made while hitch-hiking around the South Island of New Zealand and fallen in love with the town. In one week I think I had seen 5 live music shows, including Austin staples Asylum Street Spankers and Bob Schneider. This would be my town, and Biku got me there…I found an apartment and started my sheer vertical learning curve in the music world. I wrote and I played until and after my fingers blistered and bled. I fell in love, I got my heart broken, and Biku drove me home every night. I drove down to Big Bend National Park with friends and camped out under the stars and swam in natural hot springs and drove home at 30 miles an hour because a cylinder blew out and now I only had 3. (That was a really really long drive.)
One day my dad called and told me my mom couldn’t sleep at night, worrying about me driving around in that old bus with the engine in back, the bus with no power steering that had made my arms so strong, the bus with the hazard lights stuck on so I was forever waving to people wondering if I needed help and yelling out that it was just an old bus, the bus that I had driven up and down the Rocky Mountains on the shoulder of a two lane highway so that everyone could pass me, puffing away up the peaks at 20 miles an hour straight into the belly of an angry thunder storm and down away again…
So I sold it. I sold my Biku to a really nice guy who was going to live in it for 6 months and climb a bunch of mountains in Canada. I sold it and I watched him drive away and I went inside and cried. I got a Ford Expedition which was wonderful and reliable and incredibly safe and held lots of gear and took me on tour and was not Biku.
I grew up.
Now I live in Los Angeles. In Los Angeles people love their cars. I like to be a rebel even though I’m a grown up now, so I wash my 14 year old Expedition twice a year whether it needs it or not. People love their cars. But nobody loves their cars like I loved my Biku. Tonight we are on the cusp of summer, the jacaranda trees are finishing raining down their purple blossoms, Van Morrison is playing on the stereo. I’m happy. But I miss my Biku so much.
Or maybe it’s not Biku I miss. Maybe I’m just looking for a 4-cylinder memory that carried me away on my young dreams and reminds me that the road ahead is long, and it is lovely. It really is a lovely ride.